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Shock.. denial.. acceptance ... sad..  all these feeling come in really quick..
Why so?
My cousin just passed away.. he is nt in singapore bt hard to believe that he just paased away..

A person who always joke with mi.. play games with mi.. and take care of mi when i was young.. i really can seem to believw that he is just gone.

Pity the family cos he left his 3 young kids n his beautiful wife..

We yet tell our granny abt his away.. scared that she can take it. But the elders decided to tell her that first thing tomor morning. We younger ones would like to keep it to ourself then tell her. She is reli old that i dun think she couls take it.
Since rhe funeral is in malaysia , we scaeed she do not have the energy travel.. 

Are we making the right decision?
Can granny really take it?
If we didnt tell her, she sure will blame us for it.
Alot of question yet which is the correct answer that we could chose.
Ppl said that problem is to be solve, and yet if the problem cant be solve we should ask around to get answer, help, feedback.
Problem always has an answer to it. It onli depend on the decision that we choose.

My beloved cousin sausiong... . god will bless your family and we will try our best to help them out.
R.I.P Sausiong

Labels: cousin

This song really reflect what situation that i am now...
One shot to see if I make it...
I try to give up.. But why not give it one more shot to see it i could make it...
This song sung very well...
it show how life is when we are making decision...
First time when I heard this song, I thought this is a christian song...
but the more i listen.. I think the lyrics are very meaningful and it really reflect what life is..

林俊杰 - One Shot
Lin jun jie - One Shot

feat 王力宏 小提琴特别演奏

feat wang li hong xiao ti qin te bie yan zou

Just one shot

Just one shot

Is all you got to make or break into your fame

Is all you got to make or break into your fame

Just one shot

Just one shot

They will lift you up and take you down the same

They will lift you up and take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

O Father please, I ask for Your mercy

O Father please, I ask for Your mercy

They judge me way before they even know me

They judge me way before they even know me

O Father please, do you hear me screaming

O Father please, do you hear me screaming

These lights won't stop chasing after me

These lights won't stop chasing after me

I will not fall I will not crawl, I will keep on standing tall

I will not fall I will not crawl, I will keep on standing tall

'Til I'm strong enough to break this wall

'Til I'm strong enough to break this wall

Oh~ I won't drown don't tie me down

Oh~ I won't drown don't tie me down

Won't you just set me free

Won't you just set me free

It takes one shot to strip it away from me

It takes one shot to strip it away from me

And O my Lord, I can't believe what I saw

And O my Lord, I can't believe what I saw

You got one shot

You got one shot

Just to make or break your fame

Just to make or break your fame

Just one shot

Just one shot

They will lift you up, take you down the same

They will lift you up, take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

Our father, who art in heaven

Our father, who art in heaven

Hallowed be thy name

Hallowed be thy name

In thy name I pray to you, oh forever it remains

In thy name I pray to you, oh forever it remains

I know you haven't left me but I'm feeling so alone

I know you haven't left me but I'm feeling so alone

When the darkness comes I shall never have to wait on my own

When the darkness comes I shall never have to wait on my own

I feel so lost, my mind is going out of control

I feel so lost, my mind is going out of control

Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says The Lord

Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says The Lord

I'm persecuted but not forsaken, struck down to the floor

I'm persecuted but not forsaken, struck down to the floor

But not destroyed cause Its not like this hasn't happened before

But not destroyed cause Its not like this hasn't happened before

I see these lights and you've warned me to be on the alert

I see these lights and you've warned me to be on the alert

My heart is tired from soaking it up like rain in the dirt

My heart is tired from soaking it up like rain in the dirt

Oh~ just one shot

Oh~ just one shot

Oh~ yeah~

Oh~ yeah~

Yeah~ one shot

Yeah~ one shot

They will lift you up, take you down the same

They will lift you up, take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

Guess that i just found a job on wed... ^^ one mth off no income.. but this job just make my dae.. gt a raise in my income now.. abt $300 more.. ^^ ok la.. quite happi now.. since the $$ came in handy now.. sincey dad health is not really that well now..

Now all the income come from mi n my bro.. doubt that we can use for any other purpose for the time being...

My dad has been in the hospital almost for a week le.. he jusg went for surgy on wed.. still nt sure if he still gt any infection on his wound now.. ?? N not sure if he need to 洗腎... still need to wait for the result...

People tend to change over a period of time... i do believe..
Nv once i see my dad so angry before ... and i am the one that make him angry...

Is like when u r young yr parent choose smth or told u smth that is for yr own good... and u r very frustrated why they choose for u n u tend to have a mind of yr own... then u starr to argue with them... this situation is like mi n my dad nw...

Ask him to nt to drink yet.. he argue n shouted abt the more u rwmind him the more he will drink..

Hai... older ppl reli hard to take care of...

Choices to be made everydae... but wat decide it for us...?? Environment..people..the way u think?

Choice that we think is right might turn out to be an mistake.. an this mistake might be prenament choice for yr life... sometime parent think that they planned yr life for u yet they kinda miss out what u wan for yr life... yr thinking might be you want life to be slow n easy... somes want it to be full of excitment...

If choice made, the other step is to step it out which seem to be easy yet not... do u have the courage to proceed?

u might have planned out the target of yr life yet there might be mani obtacles for u to overcome it... will we be able to overcome it  ourself?

I do agree life is not that easy when u think that u overcome one problem when the other problem follow .
the pressure the stress of making decision that u need to make or even convicing other to agree is hard...

Making decision normally led to quarrel between friends, family and even yr company superior. As every1 thinking is not that simply and the way that they want thing to be is exactly the same as yrs..

Maybe the decision that u wanted to make the answer has been just right infront of u or i can said right at the beginning it is there... ot just that we are blind to see the simple thing roght infront of us...

Resolution for coming year, Which is finding a new job, finish up my studies and earn as much $$ as possible to help out with the family.
Since my dad is no longer able to work due to his illness.
Most of the expense will be mi and brother to help to cover up...
No choice, singapore living expenses are getting higher,
Need to save up some $$ to renovate my hse... plus need to save up some $$ for my dad medical bill.
We did get some help from the goverment such as my studies and medicial bill for my dad.
Not sure how mani time my dad need to be in the hospital..
You know hospital bill normally is quite expensive and the ambulance that my dad call to admit himselve to the hospital aint any cheaaper....

My whole family are predicting my dad going to live how longer...
Which we are guess around 2 to 3 years more...
Since last time he admitted to the hospital the doctor said that his heart and most of his main organ are failing so it wont be long...

But I still hope nothing will happen to my dad next year and his health will still get better.

I tot christmas should bring us happiness yet.  Today my first present is to send my dad to the hospital..

My bro woke mi up tis morning n said my dad like having stroke which i am unsure of it .anyway i ask my little bro to call 995 n other bro call my mum to ask her to come home quickly . She at grandmum hse.

This remind mi of my grandpa two years ago . He is bedden due to cancer.  It is quite shocking for us tis morning. Not sure i could finish writing tis blog. 

Shock.. denial.. acceptance ... sad..  all these feeling come in really quick..
Why so?
My cousin just passed away.. he is nt in singapore bt hard to believe that he just paased away..

A person who always joke with mi.. play games with mi.. and take care of mi when i was young.. i really can seem to believw that he is just gone.

Pity the family cos he left his 3 young kids n his beautiful wife..

We yet tell our granny abt his away.. scared that she can take it. But the elders decided to tell her that first thing tomor morning. We younger ones would like to keep it to ourself then tell her. She is reli old that i dun think she couls take it.
Since rhe funeral is in malaysia , we scaeed she do not have the energy travel.. 

Are we making the right decision?
Can granny really take it?
If we didnt tell her, she sure will blame us for it.
Alot of question yet which is the correct answer that we could chose.
Ppl said that problem is to be solve, and yet if the problem cant be solve we should ask around to get answer, help, feedback.
Problem always has an answer to it. It onli depend on the decision that we choose.

My beloved cousin sausiong... . god will bless your family and we will try our best to help them out.
R.I.P Sausiong

Labels: cousin

This song really reflect what situation that i am now...
One shot to see if I make it...
I try to give up.. But why not give it one more shot to see it i could make it...
This song sung very well...
it show how life is when we are making decision...
First time when I heard this song, I thought this is a christian song...
but the more i listen.. I think the lyrics are very meaningful and it really reflect what life is..

林俊杰 - One Shot
Lin jun jie - One Shot

feat 王力宏 小提琴特别演奏

feat wang li hong xiao ti qin te bie yan zou

Just one shot

Just one shot

Is all you got to make or break into your fame

Is all you got to make or break into your fame

Just one shot

Just one shot

They will lift you up and take you down the same

They will lift you up and take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

O Father please, I ask for Your mercy

O Father please, I ask for Your mercy

They judge me way before they even know me

They judge me way before they even know me

O Father please, do you hear me screaming

O Father please, do you hear me screaming

These lights won't stop chasing after me

These lights won't stop chasing after me

I will not fall I will not crawl, I will keep on standing tall

I will not fall I will not crawl, I will keep on standing tall

'Til I'm strong enough to break this wall

'Til I'm strong enough to break this wall

Oh~ I won't drown don't tie me down

Oh~ I won't drown don't tie me down

Won't you just set me free

Won't you just set me free

It takes one shot to strip it away from me

It takes one shot to strip it away from me

And O my Lord, I can't believe what I saw

And O my Lord, I can't believe what I saw

You got one shot

You got one shot

Just to make or break your fame

Just to make or break your fame

Just one shot

Just one shot

They will lift you up, take you down the same

They will lift you up, take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

Our father, who art in heaven

Our father, who art in heaven

Hallowed be thy name

Hallowed be thy name

In thy name I pray to you, oh forever it remains

In thy name I pray to you, oh forever it remains

I know you haven't left me but I'm feeling so alone

I know you haven't left me but I'm feeling so alone

When the darkness comes I shall never have to wait on my own

When the darkness comes I shall never have to wait on my own

I feel so lost, my mind is going out of control

I feel so lost, my mind is going out of control

Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says The Lord

Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says The Lord

I'm persecuted but not forsaken, struck down to the floor

I'm persecuted but not forsaken, struck down to the floor

But not destroyed cause Its not like this hasn't happened before

But not destroyed cause Its not like this hasn't happened before

I see these lights and you've warned me to be on the alert

I see these lights and you've warned me to be on the alert

My heart is tired from soaking it up like rain in the dirt

My heart is tired from soaking it up like rain in the dirt

Oh~ just one shot

Oh~ just one shot

Oh~ yeah~

Oh~ yeah~

Yeah~ one shot

Yeah~ one shot

They will lift you up, take you down the same

They will lift you up, take you down the same

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Will you give it all you've got

Will you give it all you've got

Let it take you to the top

Let it take you to the top

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Or will you bleed it out in vain?

Only got one shot

Only got one shot

Tell your heart to never stop

Tell your heart to never stop

Lock your eyes only on the spot

Lock your eyes only on the spot

If there is no pain there will be no gain

If there is no pain there will be no gain

Guess that i just found a job on wed... ^^ one mth off no income.. but this job just make my dae.. gt a raise in my income now.. abt $300 more.. ^^ ok la.. quite happi now.. since the $$ came in handy now.. sincey dad health is not really that well now..

Now all the income come from mi n my bro.. doubt that we can use for any other purpose for the time being...

My dad has been in the hospital almost for a week le.. he jusg went for surgy on wed.. still nt sure if he still gt any infection on his wound now.. ?? N not sure if he need to 洗腎... still need to wait for the result...

People tend to change over a period of time... i do believe..
Nv once i see my dad so angry before ... and i am the one that make him angry...

Is like when u r young yr parent choose smth or told u smth that is for yr own good... and u r very frustrated why they choose for u n u tend to have a mind of yr own... then u starr to argue with them... this situation is like mi n my dad nw...

Ask him to nt to drink yet.. he argue n shouted abt the more u rwmind him the more he will drink..

Hai... older ppl reli hard to take care of...

Choices to be made everydae... but wat decide it for us...?? Environment..people..the way u think?

Choice that we think is right might turn out to be an mistake.. an this mistake might be prenament choice for yr life... sometime parent think that they planned yr life for u yet they kinda miss out what u wan for yr life... yr thinking might be you want life to be slow n easy... somes want it to be full of excitment...

If choice made, the other step is to step it out which seem to be easy yet not... do u have the courage to proceed?

u might have planned out the target of yr life yet there might be mani obtacles for u to overcome it... will we be able to overcome it  ourself?

I do agree life is not that easy when u think that u overcome one problem when the other problem follow .
the pressure the stress of making decision that u need to make or even convicing other to agree is hard...

Making decision normally led to quarrel between friends, family and even yr company superior. As every1 thinking is not that simply and the way that they want thing to be is exactly the same as yrs..

Maybe the decision that u wanted to make the answer has been just right infront of u or i can said right at the beginning it is there... ot just that we are blind to see the simple thing roght infront of us...

Resolution for coming year, Which is finding a new job, finish up my studies and earn as much $$ as possible to help out with the family.
Since my dad is no longer able to work due to his illness.
Most of the expense will be mi and brother to help to cover up...
No choice, singapore living expenses are getting higher,
Need to save up some $$ to renovate my hse... plus need to save up some $$ for my dad medical bill.
We did get some help from the goverment such as my studies and medicial bill for my dad.
Not sure how mani time my dad need to be in the hospital..
You know hospital bill normally is quite expensive and the ambulance that my dad call to admit himselve to the hospital aint any cheaaper....

My whole family are predicting my dad going to live how longer...
Which we are guess around 2 to 3 years more...
Since last time he admitted to the hospital the doctor said that his heart and most of his main organ are failing so it wont be long...

But I still hope nothing will happen to my dad next year and his health will still get better.

I tot christmas should bring us happiness yet.  Today my first present is to send my dad to the hospital..

My bro woke mi up tis morning n said my dad like having stroke which i am unsure of it .anyway i ask my little bro to call 995 n other bro call my mum to ask her to come home quickly . She at grandmum hse.

This remind mi of my grandpa two years ago . He is bedden due to cancer.  It is quite shocking for us tis morning. Not sure i could finish writing tis blog. 

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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